I have awful anxiety, particularly of the social variety. This is important.
There’s a store in my town that advertises everything as being $5 or below…sort of a slightly souped up dollar store. My fella and I were out trying to find a non-packed place to eat (impossible, there were tears, we settled on Hardee’s.) On our way home, we decided to stop in at this store to try and pick up some things for our daughter’s Christmas stocking. Naturally, being the second to last weekend before Christmas, everyone else had the same idea.
The place is packed, people are staggered willy nilly through the aisles, everyone’s in my face, in my space, blocking where I want to go and I. just. want. to. leave. I am not doing well.
I make it through the store, have an armful of loot – because getting this kiddo some awesome candy and a big silky purple sloth is very important – and approach the cashier. Fella has been off somewhere browsing, but joins me at the register when I’m nearly done. On our way out, he says to the cashier, “I hope you get less busy!” He’s a friendly chap. I, in my infinite wisdom and peak social ability, say, “Oh, she won’t!” as I make a beeline for the at least more roomy parking lot.
Later on, I realize to my horror that I have become one of those people who retail workers have to deal with for hours on end that say the most stupid things. I feel on par with the folks who make the “joke” that if there’s no price sticker, the item must be free. I feel like the person who says they feel bad a cashier has to work on a holiday, but the only reason THEY have to work is because people like ME simply must shop. I didn’t mean it that way. I think I thought I was expressing some kind of solidarity in the face of an awful Christmas mob… “No, it won’t get any better, but we’ll soldier on!” But instead I said that no, her day WOULDN’T get any better, and then made my escape while she remained, stuck.
I’m a horrible person. ><